Anthony’s Retreat “Worth It”
When discussing the Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) Retreats with Benita, she often mentioned that a retreat is more healing than several weeks of individual therapy. I heard this a few times over years before I ever attended a retreat. I always thought it was a sales pitch. I’ll be the first to admit, this is not a sales pitch. This is real.
When I planned to attend the first retreat, I told myself how important it was to get my money’s worth out of the experience. Any act of not “showing up” would only be a detriment to myself, and I did not want that.
On the first day of the retreat, I found it a little awkward to be so vulnerable with a group of strangers. My introverted side likes to shy away from new people and situations until I observe them so know how I ought to respond. It’s either this or I force myself to be extroverted in such moments which is not sustainable for me.
This time, I refused to do either. I chose to show up as fully as I could. While I didn’t speak first all the time (no sense in standing in that spotlight always), I did my best to speak confidently and transparently. I allowed myself to cry. I expressed my creativity through artwork. I had unexpected moments of revealing my Authentic Self.
The pivotal moment came when Benita led us through a Breathwork session.
I heard God tell me that “I am worth it.”
This wasn’t positive thinking or a rote affirmation that impacted me just on a mental level. This message, “worth it,” nestled itself deeply in my spirit and into my bones.
Before this, I didn’t feel like I had much self-worth, although I knew I was smart and creative. I always held myself back from living the best version of myself. I grew up with a father, grandfather and brothers who belittled me, and I adopted their perception of who I was.
Now I know – I mean really KNOW – that I am “worth it.”
First, I am worth the effort of loving myself and facing things I think are difficult.
Second, I am able to RECEIVE God’s love at a much deeper level.
Third, the spiritual growth process is worth the birthing pain.
Fourth, attending the HSP Retreat was worth the sacrifice of my smaller self so I could show up as fully as I was able.
This retreat was a turning point for me. In the months that followed, these things happened:
- God guided me to move from Atlanta to the mountains. He brought me to a beautiful home that has become my sanctuary. I feel peaceful almost every day of my life.
- I received a generous raise and promotion to a job I love.
- My body feels healthier than ever.
- God united me with my Beloved in Benita’s Conscious Dating Group. This woman is beyond my wildest dreams.
I highly recommend the HSP Retreat to all those who yearn to throw off the chains that bind you. It IS possible to live a vibrant life, full of love and creativity, and fully showing up as your Authentic Self.
~ Anthony, Principal Software Engineer
A Note from Benita
I am supporting you to unleash your full potential and share your gifts with a world that desperately needs the wisdom and creativity that you carry.
If you would like help to heal the inner wounds that stop you from being your Authentic Self, contact me for a complimentary 10-minute Discovery Call to see if we are a good fit.
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Wishing you all the best that life has to offer.
Benita A. Esposito, MA, “Chief Trail Guide,” for Highly Sensitive Introverts on the Hero’s Journey to the Authentic Self. Click here for credentials.
Bestselling author of The Gifted Highly Sensitive Introvert: Wisdom for Emotional Healing and Expressing Your Radiant Authentic Self – available on Amazon.
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